Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Gweneth Louise

To say we're a bit emotional this morning would be an understatement - but, this is a level of emotion we've waited - what feels like - a very long time for. Today, in just a few short hours, we will meet our little girl. We will look into her eyes - knowing, with God's help, we created a life.

I continue to look back on the journey that brought us here - now more than ever feeling the warmth of God's plan for us. He always understood what our path would be - never letting us lose Faith. Without even laying eyes on our baby, we're filled with this uncontrollable amount of unconditional love.

There have been so many times in our relationship that I have fallen in love with Eric all over again, and this morning is most certainly one of the those top moments. I want nothing more than to remember the look on his face when he sees his little girl for the very first time.

I've thought for a very long time about what I'd write this morning, what I could possibly share, and the only thing I kept thinking about was Gwen and reading to her this message:


Gweneth Louise, you are a flawless gift from God. Your Daddy and I dreamed of this day and what it would be like, but never did we imagine how perfect this feeling truly is. As we've anxiously waited for you to arrive, you've brought so much joy to our life. Without knowing it, you've shined a light on our future. May you always be selfless and faithful, open and fearless, as great as you could be. You are my pretty thing. Happy Birthday, Gwen - Mommy and Daddy love you very much.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Last Reflection

It's still unreal to think this time tomorrow we will be holding our little girl. That every day going forward we will be parents. Eric and I will quickly start referring to each other as "Mommy" and "Daddy" in conversation. It's yet to really hit me, that the little kicks in my stomach tonight won't be hidden anymore - that she'll be here with us.


My Last - Week 39 - Reflections...

Movement: Constant. I've grown incredibly selfish to Gwen's kicks over the past few days, as I imagine what it will be like not to feel her in my belly anymore. She still loves to show off in the morning and at night after dinner. People kept telling me that the more she slows down the chances are labor is right around the corner...not for Gwen! One of my favorite feelings is putting my hand on the upper, left side of my belly and feeling her little round foot move (at least, I imagine it's her foot!). I can't lie - a part of me will miss this feeling tomorrow morning.

Cravings/Aversions: Truthfully, nothing anymore. I'm not a very picky eater - never have been - and I can simply order anything off of a menu. I did have to convince Eric to spice up our last grocery list with new items...he was falling into the same routine and this girl wanted some pizazz! 

I am feeling: Anxious. Excited. Calm. Ready. :) I've never been more prepared for something in my entire life, but at the same time feeling so completely lost. I'm very ready to meet my baby and to watch her squirm, laugh, cry and grow. I could not feel more blessed to be experiencing this moment with Eric, my very best friend.

What I miss most: Sleeping on my stomach. (OK - there, I said it.) For a very long time there wasn't much I missed...but now, I miss it. Maybe it's because I've become increasingly uncomfortable over the past four weeks - but, I'm so ready to be able to sleep on my stomach while bending my knee up to where it won't hit my belly.

Best moment of the past week: Our doctor's visit last Tuesday - where we found out we would have only one more week! After that - it would have to be last night's date night. We didn't go anywhere fancy, took a walk around Target to "walk off" the chips and salsa as we always do...but, for the last time it was just Eric and I.

What I'm looking forward to this week: ...is this a trick question?!...without words, I think everyone knows what we're looking forward to.


With that being said - I want nothing more than to remember every minute of this feeling.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Last Week

This week has been full of "lasts". The last grocery shopping trip before we spend a few days in the hospital. The last Friday night where Eric has to work late and I'm home watching late-night TV until he comes home alone. The last Saturday and Sunday we'll spend as a solely, married couple. And, tonight, the last date night where we don't have to get a babysitter.

We've wrapped up just about everything we can - which, everything Gwen-related was tackled almost weeks ago. I've officially packed my bag for the hospital, made the "do not forget" list to check and double-check before we walk out the door on Wednesday and have straightened up the house for home visits when we return.

It still feels as if we're simply planning for a vacation - that it doesn't feel real. It's unimaginable to me, that in just TWO days we will be holding our baby...and will officially be parents. I continue to feed the "How are you feeling?" question - and Eric gets the "Are you nervous?" Our responses never change - I feel great, just counting down the days (now almost hours!) and not nervous at all. I imagine we'll both be nervous driving to the hospital Wednesday morning - but until then, there's a strange calmness between the two of us.

I've read, researched, asked questions - as much as I possibly can to prepare myself for the emotions of Wednesday...and each time, it almost triggers what emotions I have left. I feel like the last nine months have gone by in a blink of an eye. If at all possible, I pray that the next two days fly by - but that our first few days with her go by extremely slow.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Arrival Time

It's official...we're on the books!!

Today I received the phone call from Dr. Bell's nurse explaining that we are to arrive at the hospital next Wednesday at 8am. Gwen's delivery will begin at 10am! :)

We have only one week to go...

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Worth the Wait

Not only is today the beginning of Week 38 - but, Eric and I had our much-anticipated ultrasound and, what is now our last, weekly appointment. At today's visit we not only got one last look at Gwen's squished body and face, but we now have an actual DUE DATE!

It's completely official...next Wednesday, the 18th, we will be welcoming our little girl into our crazy world...and truly, not much of this excitement can be contained. I want so badly for this next week to fly by - even faster than the last nine months.

During today's ultrasound we got a good glimpse at her squished face...including her chubby, little cheeks. The ultrasound tech did mention that her head is measuring on schedule - that really the only thing pushing her off is the size of her tummy. I think Eric and I can both agree that some of the best news given today was being told she has hair on her head! And, not just a strand or two...the tech mentioned it was hanging in front of her face! :) I, being bald as a baby, love the idea of Gwen having hair - it will make her cute brain-squeezers look so darn perfect!

It was also confirmed that will be over 9lbs, which I'm slowly starting to come to terms with. Not that I expect her to come out crawling or potty-trained (if only that were an option!) - but, I also want her to be healthy. Because of her size, we've opted for a c-section delivery. Dr. Bell gave us the choice, but wasn't too confident I would be able to delivery naturally. I specifically asked her if it was strange, as a woman, to question wanting a natural birth at all...as if she's my therapist.

Eric and I had a long conversation about how Gwen would be delivered - and because there's absolutely no progress being made (still not dilated and she still hasn't dropped), the entire process and procedure of a natural birth would span past 24 hours. And, at the "end" - we could potentially have to have an emergency c-section. I've loved being pregnant, and have loved being given the opportunity to carry our child - but never have I been "connected" to having a natural delivery. I don't feel as if my entire being will be unjustified, because I chose not to deliver naturally - but rather as "quickly" as possible to see my baby.

Therefore, now - we wait. We're currently waiting for a call back from the office with our official arrive-at-the-hospital time. All of the planning, scheduling, preparation, check-ups, ultrasounds...it will be worth the wait! :)

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

14 days and counting...

Hello, Full-Term!! :)

Yesterday's weekly appointment was quick and easy - as Gwen has still not progressed. I walked into the doctor's office and was immediately taken back to the room (no check-in, no-nothin'!) - totally felt like a celebrity. I know some women, when making it to Week 37, would probably consider no progress a downer...but, not this Momma! Granted, I'm very ready to meet my baby girl - and be "normal" again - but, I'd also really like the extra week to wrap everything up. I keep telling people, it's the control-freak in me, that just doesn't like not being fully prepared.

Dr. Bell is on vacation this week, so yesterday I was checked out by the Nurse Practitioner...who was wonderful! Gwen's heartbeat was racing at 155 bpm. The nurse went as far to say, she doesn't think Gwen is coming on her own anytime soon.

Last week I did have the beta-strep test completed, and like most women - my test came back positive. I'm very at ease with this test, because of the easy solution, should I go into labor on my own. The nurse stressed the commonness of this test over and over - and that the hospital will be informed immediately at "go time".

Gwen continues to bounce around in my belly throughout the day. I can say her kicks are finally starting to get a tad-bit violent. She's now hanging out around the middle of my belly, with the little feet and hands being felt on my left side. I keep thinking about how it will be to not feel her move anymore...but, of course - that comes it the thought of actually having her here!

The most common question Eric and I are being asked now is: "Are you nervous??" Nervous, no - not at all. We will be on the day of her arrival - especially if it's as scheduled as it all appears it to be and we will wake up knowing our lives are about to change forever. But, right now - we're just soaking in the last few days that we have as just the two of us.

Exactly TWO WEEKS from today - we will be holding our baby. I pray that the days absolutely fly by!

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Completely Shut

Today was Gwen's Week 36 check-up. At today's appointment her heart was racing at 154 bpm - staying as consistent as ever. She's measuring "on schedule" - compared to the development we learned of over the last two weeks. Meaning, she's still measuring beyond Week 36 - but not going too far beyond what she was last week.

The biggest difference between today's appointment and the rest was Dr. Bell checked to see if I was dilated or not.

(Side note...I did not expect this part of the exam to hurt as bad as it did...talk about extreme discomfort!)

She not only mentioned that I'm not dilated whatsoever, but that I'm "completely shut" AND Gwen is still "up high". (I added the "up" part, so that you do not confuse our baby with a drug addict.) This really eased my mind and cleared a small bit of going-into-labor-too-soon fear. Of course, Gwen could still come whenever she sees fit - but the chances at this stage are still low.

Our next appointment is next Tuesday - which we will be without Dr. Bell, as she's on vacation. We'll, instead, meet with the Nurse Practitioner - and have the same exam. Today we officially scheduled our Week 38 ultrasound for April 10th. It's amazing to think that in just a few short weeks (at this point, is it okay to say "a few short days"?!) we will have a narrowed down, delivery date. The Control Freak in me loves this - the other side of me just can't believe this is all happening.

Over the last week - I've felt great. Definitely feeling like a beached whale when I sit down - and, I will quote Jessica Simpson with "I feel like I have a bowling ball on my who-ha!" Sleeping has gotten MUCH better - despite getting up every few hours. For a while I was sleeping with a pillow between my knees - helping my back - which, I found wasn't helping what really hurt (my hips). I slept without the pillow last night and was able to sleep through the night with almost no pain. We'll see if the streak goes on...

Gwen is still constantly moving. She specifically seems to show-off for Dr. Bell, and is still extremely active in the morning and at night, after dinner. When she's moving, she turns into my biggest distraction. I absolutely love watching her kick, move and bounce around.

I'm beginning to wrap up items and organize procedures at work. What I first thought was a small list - keeps growing. It does make a girl feel pretty good about everything she manages for a company! This weekend we have just a few last-minute items to pick up, specifically milk-machine (as Angie likes to call it!) accessories. As for the everything else - I think we're as ready and set as we could possibly be.

(I would like to ask tonight, for those who read this Blog, to keep my Papaw in your prayers as we inch closer to Friday. Last week we learned that he has been diagnosed with colon cancer, and will undergo surgery to remove the cancerous spot on Friday. My Papaw has been an absolute guardian and mentor throughout so many moments of my life - I can't imagine the worry he must be feeling, compared to the worry I feel. I know, in a time like this, he turns to God for support and prayer - and I am committed to doing the same.)

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

April 18th

I rarely have days where I ask God to prepare me for the emotions that will be coming my way - as I believe He only gives me as much as I can handle. But today, I wish I had asked - because then I would have known what was coming.

We woke up this morning having this many number of days left before Gwen is to arrive...

We now go to bed having only this many...


Before you tell me to calm down, that we're talking about a mere week in advance - let me explain that I had prepared myself for everything to be wrapped around April 24th. Nothing before - but certainly anything after.

Today was Gwen's Week 35 check-up. The biggest part of today's appointment was wrapped around the ultrasound to determine if Gwen was breech. Our prayers were answered - as she's currently sitting in position - head down, back to my right side and butt up top. I did ask if she was face-up or face-down, only because I was curious. At today's appointment - she's face up...which is exactly as I had hoped - that way when I talk to her, I know she's looking. :) Her heartbeat was racing at 161 bpm. She must have been oober excited to see Mom and Dad!

I could stare at this profile all day...
Squished face!
After it was determined she's in the position we want her in - it was announced that she's currently weighing 7lbs, and is measuring 37 weeks. This entire thought threw me over the edge of emotions. After we walked out of the room, with our new images of our baby girl, I sat in the waiting room and cried. I'm beyond ready to meet Gwen, to connect with her in so many ways - but I want to her to be healthy. I kept imagining her coming too early - that despite her being in good weight, that her lungs aren't developed.

We then met with Dr. Bell, as she walked us through what she read from the ultrasound. She double-checked my file for my glucose test results, saying that she had never seen a baby this size (at this stage!) where the mother didn't have gestational diabetes. She confirmed the results were as she had read them the first time. She explained that at the latest we would have a baby on Wednesday, April 18th. She then explained that she wants to have another ultrasound in three weeks - to nail down an exact delivery date.

She mirrored what the ultrasound tech stated, that there is a margin of error in size with ultrasounds - a half a pound below and above - but that her biggest concern is continuing to allow Gwen's body to finish developing on her own. Despite measuring two weeks ahead of schedule, she didn't see the need to check whether I'm dilated or not - which did ease some of my nerves.

She explained that her weight is completely out of my control - but I couldn't help but continue to feel guilty. I've done everything in my power to make sure she's been given the best while growing in my belly, and so far throughout the entire pregnancy it has been almost perfect. I can't help but think I could have done something more, something better or different.

Therefore, as I go to bed tonight - I can't help but continue to think about how little time we have. I'm mixed between the most excited emotions imaginable - that we will have a nailed-down date Gwen will make her grand entrance! - and the most concerned level of emotions. I just ask that God continues to hand us only what we can handle, and when we think we're not prepared to handle it - that He sends us what we need to believe.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Large and smelly - but prepared!

Baby is now the size of a durian!

The first question you should have this week, is the exact same question I had...

...what in the WORLD is a "durian"?! With a quick Google search, I found the answer I wasn't looking for:

"Widely known and revered in southeast Asia as the 'king of fruits', the durian is distinctive for its large size, unique odor and thorn-covered husk."

Therefore, TheBump is pretty much saying - I'm large and smell. Wonderful, huh?!

Either way - this week I'm continuing to find it difficult to "roll over" at night - which isn't helping with the amount of trips I take from the bed to the bathroom. I'm waking up every 2-3 hours to pee, almost on-the-dot...talk about "preparing for baby"!

Lately I've also been waking up due to terrible hip pain as well. I'm naturally built with hips that are already child-barring friendly, but adding the fact that they're moving even more is really starting to bring some not-so-nice pain. Ususally a quick stretch will do the trick, and by the time I start moving around in the morning - I'm back to normal.

As for the most exciting update for Week 34 - I receieved my weekly email with a check-list of items to complete. One thing on this week's list surprised me with how early it feels - but, I didn't hesitate from marking it off as complete!


You're probably having the same feeling Eric did (at first!)...it's way too early to put the car seat in the car. It only took the explanation that we're SIX weeks away from meeting our Little Girl - and the idea that she "could" come at any time means we must be prepared. At least at this point - I look like a Mom with the car seat in the backseat - and she can ride home in style!

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Final choice!

For the last week I've been on THE hunt for a side table to sit next to the chair in Gwen's room. You name it - I checked...outside of actual furniture stores (trying to avoid the expensive cost of the "furniture store cost" for a simple table). BUT - Last night, Ladd took Gwen on her first date - while Amanda and I chaperoned. And, before dinner - we stopped at The Christmas Tree Shoppe...which, if you're wondering, doesn't have a single Christmas tree up.

We walked straight to the back of the store - and had a handful of white side tables to choose from. After narrowing the choices down to two, I went with the smaller of the two - and I'm so happy I did. It fits perfectly!

Final product:


Now that the table is up, I truly never want to leave - gives me a great place to put a drink and sit in her chair. This morning I decided to whip out my "How to take care of Baby" book and caught up on a few chapters. Eric joined, but sadly was forced chose to sit on the floor. We both equally agreed that we can not wait for her to arrive!

I think someone else can't wait for the sun to arrive...

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Honeydew


Today not only is the start of our 33rd week, but today also was my "every other week" doctor's appointment. Unfortunately, this appointment wasn't quite as uneventful as we hoped. Dr. Bell wasn't concerned about my massively swollen feet, my blood pressure or my weight. BUT - she was concerned about Gwen's placement in my belly.

We listened to Gwen's heartbeat - 145 bpm - and then Dr. Bell measured my stomach and immediately said that at our next appointment (in two weeks, the last two-week appointment) - we'll have our sixth ultrasound. She mentioned that she could feel Gwen was concentrated more towards the top and feared she may be breech. I explained to her the constant "push" I feel towards the top of my stomach and that almost all of Gwen's movement is on the upper-right hand side.

I'm incredibly excited to see Gwen's squished face on the ultrasound again, but very nervous about her placement and will be keeping my fingers crossed that she's not breech...or turns over the next few weeks (because we only have a FEW!)...

As for the progress of Gwen's room - juuust about complete! All of her "things" are in place and put away. We've hung the shelf, but are still on the hunt for the side table. We originally bought one at Garden Ridge, but when we brought it home - it had a scratch on the top. I took it back, exchanged it for another and the second had a crack down the leg. I gave up on the Garden Ridge table and found one at Target I really liked. Of course, the white color just happens to be discontinued - so the hunt is back on. Once we have the table - everything will be complete...just need to add Gwen! :)

Monday, March 5, 2012

But, really...

...who's counting?! :) :) :)

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Holy Squash!!


Today marks the beginning of WEEK 32. Comparing this week to the last - it definitely went much quicker (probably because we had more to look forward to...).

Each week I've enjoyed looking at the fruit/vegetable comparison and rarely have I looked at the "your baby" picture. Today my eye went straight for the image. It's unbelievable to think THIS is curled up inside my belly. It's becoming so "real" as we inch closer and closer to her arrival!


Because very little has changed since last week - I've decided to share where I fall on this list:


As for the Braxton Hicks - I have felt them, but I'm not sure they're getting any more "intense". A few weeks back I feel like I felt them more often than I do now, but I also think that's because they were a strange feeling I hadn't felt. Now that I have, I've become "used" to them.

I'm sure no one wants to hear about my tatas - but I have to say, The Girls have just turned darker all over. I feel incredibly funny looking!

Shortness of breath happens when I'm up moving around, but only at a faster pace. I have no problem walking the aisles of Babies R Us for the millionth time. But, if I'm rushing up the stairs at work to beat the UPS guy - then, yes - I lose my breath quicker than I used to.

One of the strangest times I lost my breath - or just feel weak in general - is when I'm laying in bed and have to flip over or get up. The flat position is not one that's friendly with pregnant women - at least I'm not a fan! I've started to prop myself up more during the night (mostly because it helps me stay cool and on my side), which has made the several-a-night potty trips easier to manage.

Haven't had the heartburn - thank the Good Lord!

The "Enlarged breasts that may leak!" is laughable to me. I have had a problem with the leaks since about Week 20 - why TheBump is just now mentioning this is crazy! (Big thanks to Amanda for saving the night with part of her shower gift!)

Speaking of shower gifts...this past Sunday, Dana (with the help of her mom and Amanda!) threw Gwen and I an amazing shower here for our friends and family here in Greenwood. It was fantastic getting "showered" all over again - not to mention walking home with much-need (and much-liked!) items.

Dana outdid herself with the decorations and food (which, might I add she was told appetizers and desserts...yet, she planned a feast!). We played the "guess the baby food in the jar" game - and, it's official, I can not tell the difference between green beans and peas (especially since my guess was broccoli). Eric's sister, Kristin, nailed the game...I credit that to Jordan and Dalen! :)

We then played a game that's hard to title - but kept us all entertained! Amanda read a story about Mrs. Right - which each time the word "right" was mentioned (in any form, I suppose) we were to pass the gift bag to the right. Same thing for the world "left". I couldn't tell you a single sentence of the story, because the only thing I was concentrating on were the words "right" and "left". We had a few hiccups determining which way to pass - but collectively, we did great! (And, Angie walked away with the prize!)

Finally, we played the name-the-baby of a wide range of animals. Of the animals listed - I knew maybe seven...my strategy was just to add "ie" at the end of everything. Name of a baby duck? Duckie! Hey, in a few cases it works...

I can't thank the women who helped celebrate Gwen's arrival enough for the amount of gifts we received. She truly will be the best-dressed chick on the block! Eric's Mom - who had already purchased us a much-need gift (the crib mattress!) - surprised me with the baby blanket Eric had as an infant. She also tucked inside the bag a few pictures of Eric as a baby.

But, I have to admit - the most anticipated gift that I was looking forward to was my baby bag. I'm a big purse-person, so finding the best bag was super easy for me...and I noticed almost within days of Eric and I registering it had been purchased. Of course, I had no clue who bought it for me - but was sold that Christmas 2012 whomever they were would receive an extra stocking stuffer from the Davis Family! She threw me off with a few white-lies, so I was incredibly shocked when I opened the bag from Amanda (and Kathy and Amy!). Seriously, who gets excited for a baby bag?!

Again, thank you - thank you, thank you, thank you!! - to Dana, Becky and Amanda for going out of the way to plan such an exciting day for me. I could not be happier right now - and it's because of everything you did to make me feel spoiled! :)

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Broken Record

Call me a broken record, but really - could I be more spoiled?! The last 31 weeks have practically flown by - but I have to admit...the last few days have been dragging. Please tell me the next 9 weeks will bring the feelings like this past week, just not the speed...

Week 31 Reflections:

PINEAPPLE - by far, my favorite fruit!

Movement: I swear it's constant. I try my best to note a pattern - from what "they" say, you can determine this - but, of course it's very rare that I'm not feeling something. I feel like she's mostly hanging out on my right side, but I could be completely wrong.

Cravings/Aversions: Peanut Butter M&M's. Granted, I had high school flash-back cravings for these pre-pregnancy, but for some reason they've been a snack of choice. Maybe it's because they're an equal balance of peanut butter and chocolate - or that you can't eat too many without feeling super-gross? Who knows, really.

I am feeling starting to feel: uncomfortable at night. I've been getting extremely hot at night, so swapping out my winter blanket for my summer blanket has been a must. I look over at night and I'm half-hanging out of the blanket and Eric is in socks, a sweatshirt and tucked-in as tight as possible. Oh, the contrast...

What I miss most: I really don't have a differing answer for this one...there really isn't that "thing" I just miss most.

Best moment of the past week: Gwen's rug arrived! I debated purchasing the rug for a few days, finally decided to order it and am glad I did. I think it fits, and just adds a little touch.


What I'm looking forward to this week: My (second) baby shower!! :)

...now, excuse me as I coach UK to another win...

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Nesting

"They" say at some point during the third trimester, Moms-to-be will have a sudden urge to nest. "They" were right. Just over the past few days, Eric and I have unpacked, put together and organized everything Gwen related.

For starters, I unpacked all of the gifts received from Baby Shower #1 - including organizing her closet. I hung up her clothes - organized by size (not by color, unlike my own closet) and began putting items in the dresser drawers.

...less than half of her outfits...

Wall of Diapers!

Not all of Gwen's gifts could be hung and tucked away - a handful needed to be unpacked and put together...all of which were not easy to be assembled, but after a break in the middle, we accomplished them all!

Rocking Sleeper

Bouncer

Car Seat & Stroller - personalized with her pink poodle!

Pack 'N Play

After completely finishing the organization, I sat down to write out the "To Do List" of items yet to be completed. I kept thinking to myself that this list was miles long. Turns out, I need to give myself more credit - the list was a whopping four items long!

1. Touch-up the paint on the dresser.
2. Paint and hang the shelf for Gwen's room.
3. Purchase nightstand next to recliner.
4. Repaint the closet wall (where we outlined a bird, that we decided against painting).

(And, I'm happy to say - as of this evening, this list is already down to 3! We purchased the nightstand at Garden Ridge - which needs to be put together and will be placed next to the recliner, holding the lamp she received from Motsy.)

The pictures below are pre-Baby Shower gifts, but I couldn't help but share images of my favorite room in the house! As I'm starting to place items where they "belong", I still catch myself sitting in her room imagining what it will be like to have her here.









As I mentioned earlier, this is by-far my new favorite room in the house - and I love the warm feeling it already carries. :)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Birthentine's Day

Happy Birthday! Happy Valentine's Day! To the most amazing man in my life! :)

Today, I didn't quite win "Wife of the Year" - but, celebrating Eric's birthday and Valentine's Day is second to celebrating my own birthday. I may have waited until the last minute to buy him a card, and still I haven't purchased a gift - but he loves me anyway.

I reverted back to the young-love days, using the spare car key to break into his car while he was at work- filling the passenger seat up with balloons. :)

Eric, I love you so much! Birthentine's Day will never be the same - knowing instead of buying you Daddy cards from the dogs, I'll be buying you Daddy cards from Gwen. "You are Home to me."

Hello, Week 30...

To see the number "3" before this week's mark is extremely scary...but, in the best kind of scary way. It's real - she will be here in just 10 weeks. This is the last double-digit countdown week. :)

Very little has changed between last week and this week. Gwen is still booking it around my stomach like she's running a marathon. I had to push (what I think is) her foot away from my ribs more than I'd like, but outside of that, I love the movements. She's pretty consistent in the morning and in the evening - and mellow during the afternoon.

As for me, I'm still feeling great and have very little to complain about. I'm starting to get back into the tired feeling - which I've read is common - but at times I'll get a boost of energy as if nothing can stop me.

I find this week's food-comparison to be extremely funny looking...

Cucumber!

This upcoming week will be pretty boring - but building up to the excitement of Baby Shower #2, hosted by my amazing best friend, Dana (and her lovely Mother!) the following weekend! Also next week is my next two-week appointment with Dr. Bell. Any opportunity I can get to hear that little heartbeat, I'll take!

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Baby Shower!

Today was the first of two baby showers for Gwen. Today's shower was held in Louisville by my amazing Aunts, Anita and Maria. I can not thank them enough for a wonderful afternoon! I was surrounded by my family and friends - who some traveled just for the day...for me Gwen.

Gwen was truly showered with gifts, which made it extremely emotional for me. Building up to the time the shower started, I had this nervous feeling - realizing how real this is, how close we are to her actually being here.

I, personally, love party games! My Aunts did a wonderful job personalizing the game boards with Gwen's name written across the top of each. We played a trivia game built around baby facts - which, I had played once before...and still got almost all of them wrong! We then had to guess how many diapers were stuffed inside a basket. I was only 6 off from the actual number - which I'm extremely proud of...knowing my knowledge of diapers is minimal!

Almost every gift was decked out in some shade of pink...and, I'm not going to lie...I loved every ounce of it. She will be - by far - the best dressed baby in town! She received outfit after outfit, snuggle blankets, her bouncer seat (thanks to the Drury's), Pack 'N Play (thanks to Mamaw!), toys and Baby Bjorn carrier (thanks to MarMar!). She also received the rocking sleeper (thanks to MarMar - again - that I think I'm more excited about), swaddlers, car seat accessories, Sleep Sheep (thanks to Pamela, that Eric and I might "borrow" for ourselves) and, finally, her lamp and mobile (thanks to Motsy!).

Gwen also received a few personalized gifts - made especially for her. She received hand-made burp clothes from Nana, a water-resistant and blanket cover for her car seat from Andrea and, even though the items weren't hand-made the creativity won us all over - a baker's box of baby cupcakes (a receiving blanket wrapped around a onesie, positioned like cupcakes from a bakery).

And, of course, she walked away with a few UK gifts - including two cheerleading outfits and a handful of UK onesies...all of which will come in handy!

I had an absolutely amazing afternoon and could not be happier! Thank you to all of the women who came and celebrated Gwen's upcoming arrival. I feel so blessed to have such an amazing family surrounding me - during such an amazing time in my life. :)

Friday, February 10, 2012

Pregnancy Survey

Call me a thief - but, after reading this from Ali's blog - I couldn't help but steal it!

Pregnancy Survey!

1. What name did you and your spouse call your baby before you knew the gender?
"Baby", "Bean" and I think I used "Nugget" once or twice. The most overused was, by far, "Baby".

2. When did "Oh-my-gosh-we're-having-a-baby" really sink in?
I'm not sure I've stopped having this feeling! The moments that stick out the most are the times we got to see Gwen during an ultrasound. From the first time, seeing the small speck on the screen (with a heartbeat and all!) at 6 weeks to the last ultrasound at 23 weeks. Just being able to see her on the screen, we felt like we were given a glimpse into her personality!

3. When you think of yourself as a mom, what's the first thing to come to mind?
Being over-protective. I've mentioned this before, that I haven't laid my eyes on her yet - but I know she's everything and more. I don't want her to ever feel less than protected and spoiled (or "well taken care of...").

4. Is your nursery complete? What's the theme and what do you have left to complete?
For the most part - yes, it's complete! I like to think of the theme as just flat-out super girly! We've gone with the tree and bird theme - with little whimsical features throughout. What's left? - adding a few registry items, painting and hanging the small shelf (the same shelf I had in my room growing up!) and buying the rug for the floor.

5. List 5 qualities you hope your baby will possess.
As a baby, I hope she's (1) patient, (2) lovable, (3) warm, (4) happy and (5) a consistent sleeper! :)
As a woman, I hope she's (1) patient, (2) humble, (3) honest, (4) brave and (5) faithful.

6. What's your ideal labor experience?
Ideal? I'm not sure that's even possible. Ideal would be completely painless and quick. Chances of that happening are slim to none.

7. List 5 things that have changed in your relationship with your spouse since you've been pregnant.
Really, the only thing that has "changed" is how much more I'm in love with Eric. I feel so blessed to have him as my best friend, and feel so blessed to give him the opportunity to be a father.

8. List 5 things you think will change once your baby arrives:
(A 5th was hard to think about...so I went with 4!)...(1) The obvious...less sleep. (2) We won't be bored on weeknights anymore! (3) Instead of talking in our "dog voice", we'll talk in our "baby voice". (4) I pray for better eating habits.

9. Where do you think you'll be when you go into labor? Why?
I have this fear of walking through Target or being at work and having my water break. I guess to answer the "ideal labor" question above - I'd really like to be at home, with Eric, when it's go time.

10. Have you been talking to your baby? Playing music?
We talk to her just about every opportunity we can - or when we have something to share with her. We never stop referring to her - or what life will be like with her. As for music, I like to think the car rides are her favorite - as I belt out the radio tunes to her!

11. In what ways do you hope your baby is like your spouse?
Every. Way. Possible. I hope she's calm and patient like Eric. Eric and I define "opposites" - and I envy his patience in so many situations.

12. In what ways do you hope your baby is like you?
I hope she has my desire to protect those close to her. I hope that one day, we give her the opportunity to be a big sister - and that she protects her little sister/brother with as much love as I have for Ryan.

13. How long will you wait for the next baby, or if this is your last one, why/why not?
We need to get through the first one, before we're ready for the next one! :) I am six years older than my little brother, and can remember so many memories of being "just me". I truly wouldn't trade in being a big sister for being an only child, but I love that I had those years to spend with my parents alone. I want Gwen to have that same feeling.

14. What kind of grandparents do you think your baby will have?
Will have?! How about DO have!! There are very few words I can use to even describe how amazingly blessed we are to have my parents and Eric's parents in our life. They have already done so much for us, that we will never be able to repay.

15. Who will be with you during labor? Who will visit you in the hospital during your recovery?
As for labor, it will just be Eric and I. Spending those first few moments of her life as just the three of us is incredibly important to Eric and I. During recovery, we hope to share the those moments with our family and friends - all are welcome! :)

16. How much will tell your baby (child, teenager) about your past? Why/why not?
As long as she'll listen - I'll share as many stories and experiences as I can. :)

17. Do you have any hopes for your child's activities? (Sports, academics, school preference, activities, etc.)
I like to think about what she'll be interested in as a baby and toddler - but, can't even begin to think about sports and school preferences! Of course, I hope she prefers to to wear UK blue instead of Texas orange...

18. When will you tell your baby about the birds and the bees?
I'm not sure I'm mentally prepared for this conversation. For the meantime I'll stick with the "babies come from stroks" version.

19. In what ways do you hope you'll parent like your parents did?
I hope we can teach Gwen to pay it forward instead of giving back. Without question, my parents are the first to help someone in need, not questioning it for a minute and not expecting to receive anything in return. As an adult, I have tried to live by this in so many situations - and can only pray that their example becomes our example to our child.

20. And, finally - which childhood memory do you hope your child will have (similar to the one you fondly remember)?
Disney World! Even at 26, I'm giddy over Mickey Mouse and Cinderella.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Week 29

Today marked the first of several every-two-week appointments. It was a quick and easy check-up, and like Dr. Bell mentioned - they seem silly for how short they are, but knowing how quickly something can change, it's important not to take the risk.

At today's appointment, Gwen wasn't quite as active - but I must say, she's our rather consistent little booger. Her heartbeat was racing at 145 bpm and she's measuring right on track at 29.5 weeks. Dr. Bell said most of the same things as last time - what to watch for - confirmed the "feeling" I was having last week was, in fact, Braxton Hicks and that the pain I'm feeling around my ribs is common. She confirmed that most likely it's Gwen's foot smashing up against anything she can. I'd just prefer that she find something else to smash against.

As for this week's Reflections...

TheBump states she's the size of an acorn squash...translation: heffer! :)

Movement: It never stops! Today I was conducting a phone interview and couldn't help but smile as I felt her moving the entire time. I'm telling you, this baby in my belly loves HR!

Cravings/Aversions: I think if anyone in the pregnancy process is having cravings, it's Eric. Today he sends me a text message asking, on a scale of 1-10, how much am "I" craving Margarita's Grill. There are multiple paths to get to my heart, but one of the quickest ways is with refried beans. :)

I am feeling: Large. Maybe it's because we did have Mexican food for dinner, but even after a walk through Target, I feel like a whale.

What I miss most: This category really isn't a good one for me, because I'm not missing much of anything. The whole "not being able to bend over without feeling uncomfortable" feeling would have to be the closest example to what I miss.

Best Funniest moment moments of the past week: I changed the title of this category, specifically because I have to share...and, I'm so not ashamed of the story about me!

So, "pregnancy brain" - I always thought it was an excuse women make. I'm here to tell you - it's a true, known fact. Just this week, my alarm went off at 7am as usual - instead of hopping right up, I decided to press snooze...not once, but twice. It just wasn't a morning for me to pop out of bed. I walk into the bathroom, turn the shower on - take off my pj's, open the shower door and walk in. I'm standing there wetting my hair - when all of a sudden I look down and realize I am in the shower...with my panties STILL on. I immediately busted out laughing at myself - took them off, threw them over the shower wall into the tube and went about my business. I couldn't believe what I just did - and am almost positive it was Gwen's way of making her Mommy giggle.

Now, it wouldn't be a week of funnies without mentioning an Eric story. Last night I stumbled across a "must buy for baby" checklist. I started reading the first few items off and came across "Activity Mat". I mentioned this was an item we registered for - and he says to me, "Activity mat?! Like Twister??" I can imagine coming home one day and seeing Gwen practicing her tummy-time and Eric stretching his left hand on blue, over his right leg on yellow. :)

What I'm looking forward to this week: My baby shower in Louisville!! I'm so excited to see my entire family this weekend I could pee in my pants...well, maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration - but I really could probably pee. Either way, I'm looking forward to sharing this exciting time with the women in my life who mean so much to me. I'm undoubtedly thankful for my Aunt Anita and Aunt Maria for hosting the shower - a girl couldn't ask for anything more.

Exactly 75 days to go! :)

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Unflattering Vent

On the grand scale of complaining, I feel I've done everything but "complain" throughout my pregnancy. In fact, I feel I've done the complete opposite - I've loved almost every minute. As I sit here, today marking the start of Week 28 (wowza!!), I'd like to take this minute...and...well, complain.

First of all...what is rutabaga?! I'm pretty sure I thought it was a warm, Caribbean city. Who knew it was something you eat?!


I'm starting to learn there can be unflattering parts of a woman's pregnant body. First up - and, I warn those of the male gender who are reading this...back away - leaky boobs. I apparently have no problem "letting down" when I'm relaxed, as without even realizing it I just happen to have the perfect display of the Great Lakes across my shirt. At first, it was an only-at-night thing, now it really comes anytime I'm not focusing on something intently...and I'm not a fan.

Have I mentioned how lucky I feel to have experienced my first pregnancy during the fall and winter months? You know, when long pants and socks can be worn? To describe the looks of my ankles and feet at the end of the day, I would ask that you picture a gargoyle...times three. They're gross - and with all he has to offer, coming from his huge heart, Eric lies every time I complain about them. "What? I don't see what you're talking about?" Big. Fat. Lie. That, or he thinks my ankles and feet looks this terrible all the time!

I've mentioned this once before as part of my "What do I miss most" section - but now, it's really become an added chore to my daily morning routine...bending over to put my socks on. And, what scares me even more...I still have an entire trimester to go! :(

Even at my best weight, I wouldn't say I was quite in the Gisele Bundchen fitness category...but, to feel a loss of breath from walking up a few flights of stairs is a bit much. I certainly hope Gwen is enjoying my two lungs as the perfect pillows.

And, finally - what is sleep? I have absolutely no problem falling asleep, it's a matter of staying asleep - or hitting that "rem" stage. I can wake up an hour later - have a full-length conversation, vacuum, put in a load of laundry, get back in bed and fall back asleep. A few hours later, I can wake up, let Macie out for her past-midnight potty break and roll back into bed. In between each of these "naps", I have no problem waking myself up to flip - really, there is no roll anymore - myself to my other side and fall right back to sleep. Is this what they mean when they say it's my body's way of preparing myself for a baby? I'm sure I could come up with a few other options...

With that being said, and despite all of my complaints - I wouldn't change it for the world. Gwen is a constant movement machine, and I love it. One day I'm sure I'll force her to listen to the "what I went through for you" conversation (right, like your Mom NEVER mentions this to you...) - but, until then I'll use you as my spot to vent. Now, excuse me as I prepare to create a map of the Great Lakes, with gargoyle like features, as I lose my breath bending and flipping over to no sleep. :)

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Glucose, Schmucose!!

You're currently reading a post from a Mommy-To-Be who had the odds stacks completely against her...and KNOCKED them completely out of her way!! :)

Today I received the results back from my glucose test yesterday, and I'm beyond happy to note I do not have gestational diabetes!! Looks like I should have taken a wager against Dr. Bell...

The results of the test did show that I have low iron levels - and I've been placed on an iron supplement to take once-a-day until Gwen arrives.

Truly, I could not be more happy with the news given today - I'm so proud of myself and my baby! Another blessing, another reason to be thankful for a spoiled pregnancy!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

27 & Full of Sugar

Today marks Week 27 - and was also my next month's check-up appointment. Of course, with this month's appointment, it also meant the long and dreadful glucose test. I arrived at the doctor's office first thing this morning, was offered the "Gatorade"-like drink and blood was drawn. This was a lovely, two hour test - which meant I was able to get awfully friendly with those coming and going at the office. I did meet a couple today who had just walked out of their 20-week ultrasound, where they learned they're having a boy...I loved the look on their faces!

Dr. Bell walked me through a few things to look for moving forward - as we're saying "Hello!" to the third trimester! I got an opportunity to hear Gwen's heartbeat, not once but twice - each time racing at 145 bpm. As I was laying on the table, Dr. Bell got to witness her movements - as my belly was bouncing up and down. She "measured" my tummy and her exact words were "Ah, perfect!" She gave me a list of "what to look for" and recommended classes to take at the hospital, specifically the breastfeeding class. She also noted from this point forward, I will be going for check-ups every TWO WEEKS. Talk about a "for real" moment. :)

After my appointment with Dr. Bell, I was back out in the lobby to entertain myself for another hour. Truly, it wasn't that bad - just kind of wish I had a pillow and blanket. At the end of two hours, my blood was drawn again, and I now wait for the results to come by the end of the week. I've stressed mostly over this test above the rest - as Dr. Bell hasn't shied away from explaining the high chances I will gestational diabetes, due to my family history and case of PCOS. In fact, she's almost certain I will. This can be monitored with a strict diet and medication - which I'm comfortable with. I'm more uncomfortable with the chances of future diagnosis.

As for Gwen's developments this week - goodbye fruit, hello...

CAULIFLOWER!

We're in the home stretch for sure! Over the next week, we're wrapping up the final touch-ups of the nursery and preparing for my baby shower in Louisville - so much is happening!

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Ready

I think I'm allowed to have an overly emotional post every now and then, and this one really won't shy away from that.

I sat in Gwen's room tonight thinking about how excited we are to have her here - and the fact that she will be here so soon. She was moving around, making herself known, almost all day. So, to sit back for a little bit and talk to her made it seem that much more real. We really are going to be parents to a baby girl.

What made tonight so much different than the rest, was that Eric felt her kick for the first time. To see his face light up was beyond emotional. We watched together as my belly popped up and down and I immediately thought about the amount of unconditional love I already have for her. I haven't laid my eyes on her yet, but I still know she's beautiful. I haven't held her yet, but I still know she's warm and has that baby scent everyone loves. I'm in love with her already.

As we count down the days until she's here, I'm making a promise to sit back and talk her alone. I want her to know how much I love her. I want to tell her stories about lessons learned. I want to tell her every fairy-tale moment I've had with her Daddy, and how much he loves her too.

Her name describes exactly how I feel: blessed. Today, I can say I'm not only excited for her to be here...but, I'm ready.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

98 days to go!

I'm well aware I haven't been keeping up with my twice-weekly blog posts, and I couldn't think of an excuse to cover me this week...so, in turn - here's a load of updates!

Quick Reflections from Week 26:

Movement: She's got moves like Jagger! She's booking it left and right these days. It's starting to be a little distracting as she's making her presence known during meetings at work, conversations and TV at home.

Cravings/Adversions: Not much happening here. I really wanting some ice cream the other night, and my sweet-tooth husband didn't object.

I am feeling: Much better! For almost three straight days I had a not-so-nice sinus headache that I just couldn't shake. Not even a nap covered it. Darn, Indiana weather. It's finally gone...and I hope it stays away for a long time.

What I miss most: Being able to "fold". No, not clothes - that I still don't do...I'm talking about being able to bend over to pick up a paper clip I've dropped from my desk. Seems simple enough - but when your stomach doesn't fold like it used to - it makes for a funny-looking picture.

Best moment of the past week: Watching IU and Uof L lose...OK - best moment regarding Gwen, all the happenings in her room! :)

What I'm looking forward to this week: Wrapping up the final details of her room - we're down to the last-minute items. After this weekend, all that's left is to add a baby!

To follow-up on the fun things happening to the nursery, all of her furniture finally is in its home! (Not in the places they will stay in the room, but they're in there no less.) This past weekend, Mom and Dad brought of the dresser that's been repainted to match the crib. I love how it's turned out! There's a few touch-up spots that need to be hit, and I still need to purchase new drawer pulls - but it looks fantastic against the pink paint!


Because my pregnancy-brain is in full force tonight, I've forgotten if I've shared where this dresser came from. This is from a set of furniture that belonged to Gwen's Nana's Nana. The original color was a stained, brown wood - but with a little Therese Touch, it now matches. It's very special to have a piece of furniture with a little bit of family history in the nursery.

And, an even bigger delivery arrived on Saturday - which Eric picked it up today...the ah-maz-ing rocking recliner! I may never leave this chair...and, I'm not kidding. The color matches perfectly with the rest of the room. (We can't take credit for the rocking recliner idea - it came highly recommended by Angie.)


The final delivery for the week arrived today, as well. My lovely Aunts kindly offered to throw a baby shower for my family that lives in Louisville - which is set for February 11th. Anita sent out the invitations over the weekend, and I receied my copy in today's mail. I love how girly they are! :) I'm very excited for my shower - gives me a great excuse to see my family!


This weekend, we're wrapping up the painting of the birds - even though this was my goal last weekend. We're now officially in the double-digit countdown days - only 98 days left! Eric asked if I was going to make a countdown chain (as many kids do for Christmas...) - my response back: "If he's lucky!" In all reality - I won't - instead, I'll do the adult thing and will depend on my iPhone app.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Week 25

This week seemed to creep up much slower than any of the rest. Finally we had a week that included multiple nights catching up on sitcoms and very little chaos. (Of course, that doesn't exclude the amount of hours spent at work the last two days. I'm beat!)

We're at Week 25 and officially in Month 6! :)


The biggest challenge I've found recently is trying to stay comfortable on my side. With my ever-expanding belly it means my hips are also moving. And, being a woman with hips before Gwen really isn't helping. It takes me a few minutes - but after a little shuffle, I usually find "the" spot and stick there. For those who I may be text messaging with before bed - and our conversation quickly ends...it isn't because I'm not interested - it's because I refuse to move!

Gwen doesn't seem to be shying away from letting me know she's around. I imagine her sitting in my belly practicing her backstroke. For a few weeks in the past, she was consistently on my right side - but now, it's all over. I'm having a hard time dividing between hiccups, her movement flutters and her kicks - but I love them all.

As for the progress on her room, Mom has done an amazing on her bedding! This weekend she finished the bed skirt - which looks fantastic! Next weekend she's planning to start on the bumper, and after that she's done...until I think of something else. :)


We also started on the birds over the crib. There's definitely no doubt this is a girl's room - and no lack of color! The birds are slowly starting to become my favorite part of her room.


When we reach Week 26, we'll be officially out of triple-digit countdown days and into the double-digits! We were pretty excited when counting down to our wedding when we hit double-digits, but really - this is much better. :)

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

TV, Basketball, Dinner and Gwen

Here we are at Week 24 (and a day behind, I know!). Really the only difference physically between this week and last week are Gwen's kicks! :) They're the first thing I feel when I wake up and the last thing I feel before I go to bed. I absolutely love this feeling - and can not wait for Eric to be able to feel them. Just the other night I had my arm wrapped over my belly and was pretty sure I saw it "pop" up and down.

A few things DID change over the New Year weekend, and as usual it goes to show how blessed we are to have such an amazing family! Imagine a weekend full of Dexter, UK basketball, dinner with family and Gwen. Tap in ringing in another year together (Eric and I began dating on New Year's Eve many years ago!) and you've got yourself THE weekend we experienced.

Because Dad had been traveling over the last 3-4 months, he missed our favorite and non-family appropriate-but-still-can't-help-ourselves show! Eric and I came to the rescue and beginning at 10am on Saturday we plopped ourselves in the living room and began watching episode after episode. Of course, at noon we made a desperate pause in the show to watch our UK Cats beat the UofL Cardinals (again). Gwen finally came into the picture when I (may have) "begged" Dad to put up her ceiling light. In record time (during halftime) he put the light up and it looks great. Thanks, Dad!

We watched another episode, paused again for a New Year's Eve dinner at Bonefish. After we returned home, Eric and I watched as Dad tried "guessing" what was happening during the Dexter season - Mom was busy away making the curtains for Gwen's room. The only credit I can take is approving her craftswomanship. She did an abosolutely amazing job and I looove them!


Sunday morning, Mom and Dad were back at our house - and, again while Mom "slaved" away cutting the patterns for the crib bedding - the rest of us finished up the TV series season. That night we grabbed dinner together again, and - per Dad's request - took a trip over to Babies R Us. As we were leaving Dad told us "thank you" for letting us walk through the store and that "he's just getting excited". Talk about a trigger of emotions! :)

We did also make a trip to Ashley Furniture and purchased the rocker/recliner for Gwen's room. This was much of the discussion for several weeks. We knew we wanted more of a recliner than a rocker (as we imagine having to count a few sheep in her room), but the debate came down to whether "to rock" or "to not". Final decison: rock. It should arrive for pick-up anywhere between 2-4 weeks.

Monday afternoon we tackled the first coat of the tree on the wall in her room. At first Eric was going to work on this alone - but, I couldn't not participate! It took us about two hours to complete the first coat, and it still needs that second coat for sure, but I'm IN LOVE with how it looks!


It's crazy to see the tracker inching closer towards the right, closer towards the end. I can't mention enough about how much I'm enjoying pregnancy, which makes me one lucky girl. As for the countdown I mentioned last week...